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Tuesday, November 6, 2018

LGG: Promises of God ~ Week 4, Day 2

S: It is of the L-RD's lovingkindnesses that we are not consumed, because his compassion doesn't fail.They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.

O&A: Total disclosure: This immediately brought tears to my eyes! I am trying to keep my head above the water right now, what with the health issues my youngest son is going through, and the stuff my eldest is going through at college. Abba has been leading me to a land unknown to me, and it's been kinda scary. It was exciting at first, waiting to see His handiwork in these situations, and now I'm having to rely solely on Adonai and allow my faith to grow, and watch and pray as my sons grow in faith. 

This prompted me to move immediately into application and prayer, and Abba led me to type a message to my sons:

"Boker tov, my remarkable young men. Abba loves you. So do Eema and Daddy 

Oh guys, I just realized that I have been doing the same thing that I see you guys doing. We struggle because we're afraid of giving everything to Adonai. I'm sitting here weeping as though I've experienced a great loss, and I really feel like I have. The loss is the burden I've been carrying.

I've been so afraid for you guys. I really have. I've been sitting back watching you go through things that I can't fix, and that I can't always help you with. And it's really hard! I don't know what to do, what to say, when to step in, when not to. I'm afraid of losing you guys, not just in death, but to the world. That's not to say that I think you're OF the world, just that I am afraid of either of you ever giving up Yeshua. Heck, sometimes I'm afraid that something could cause me to lose sight of Him, too, so it's not just you guys.

And I'm weeping because of the things y'all are dealing with, and going through. My heart is heavy for it. And I'm crying because of guilt over the things I've done as your mom that have changed who you are meant to be. I've messed up, and I can't undo it. I'm so sorry for leading you guys astray, and the examples I've set that didn't/don't glorify God. 

The scripture that brought this all on is Lamentations 3:22-23 "It is of the L-RD'S mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.
They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness."

Our God is so wonderful, and just as I don't deserve His mercies, His compassion, I don't deserve the wonderful (sometimes very trying) sons that He has given me, or the incredible husband He's given me. I am thanking God that I don't receive what I deserve! 

Adonai, I pour out my heart to You this morning, and I empty myself of my burdens, and the burdens of others that I've been carrying around. I relinquish them to You, Adonai! I relinquish my desire to control these situations, and for trying to see the outcome I desire, and I give them to You. They're already Yours, my King. Your faithfulness is so great, Your mercies renewed every morning. Thank You, Adonai, for receiving my broken prayers, for keeping my sons safe, and that they are on the path of seeking You. Abba, I pray that You keep them under Your pinion, keep them close by Your side, speak to them as they go through their days, guide them, Abba, and show me how to be the mom You need me to be to them. Show their Daddy how to be the leader You need him to be for them. Oh, thank You, Adonai! B'Shem Yeshua, Amein"

P: I am in awe of our Father. I hope I'm not too off-base with my SOAP today, but I'm thankful that we all have a place we can be completely transparent, and this is what He laid on my heart this morning to share. G-d's faithfulness is amazing, and stands in stark contrast to whatever faithfulness I think I have. 

Faithfulness: Emunah: אֱמוּנָה
Transliteration: 'emuwnah
firmness, fidelity, steadfastness, steadiness

I have to share another tidbit that just jumped out to me: this same word was used in Exodus 17:12 

"But Moses' hands were heavy; and they took a stone, and put it under him, and he sat thereon; and Aaron and Hur stayed up his hands, the one on the one side, and the other on the other side; and his hands were steady (emunah - H530) until the going down of the sun."

Very recently as I was talking with Adonai regarding my eldest son, He showed me this verse in a vision, and He was telling me that my beloved husband and I need to help keep his arms up as these battles are being fought. What I didn't recognize was that they first took a stone, and put it under him, and he sat thereon. Of course we recognize that Yeshua is the Rock of Salvation, and I believe Abba was showing me that before my husband and I can help strengthen our sons to fight the battles, we must be reminded that both of our sons have made their confession of faith in Messiah, both have received their mikveh/immersion; they are both on the Rock of Salvation, and this is WHY we are able to help lift their arms when they grow weary in the battle.

Abba, help us to understand when to step in and bolster their arms, and when to let You be their sole strength. B'shem Yeshua, Amein.

Monday, November 5, 2018

LGG: Promises of God ~ Week 4, Day 1

 Read & SOAP: Colossians 1: 15-16

S: who is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation.For by him were all things created, in the heavens and on the eretz, things visible and things invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities or powers; all things have been created through him, and for him.

O&A: Image: the image of one; one in whom the likeness of anyone is seen: εἰκών Θεοῦ is applied to man, on account of his power of command

I'll be honest, I don't have a short observation for this, but I'll try. I'm thinking of the Feasts of Adonai. Pesach/Passover, Chag HaMotzi/Unleavened Bread, Yom HaBikurrim/Firstfruits, Shavuot/Pentecost, Yom Teruah (often called Rosh Hashanah which is head of the year and something different)/Feast of Trumpets, Yom Kippur/Day of Atonement, Sukkot/Feast of Tabernacles. Messiah is represented in every single one of these, in different form. 

Pesach: Redemption/Sacrifice/Death of Messiah
Unleavened Bread: Santification/Burial of Messiah/No decay
Firstfruits: Represents the Savior as first of the harvest
Shavuot: Ruach haKodesh/Holy Spirit sent by G-d
Trumpets: The Lord/The King/Messiah returns to Israel 
Atonement: Day of Atonement/Messiah saves Israel
Sukkot: Messiah reigns/Wedding Feast/Golden Age/Messiah starts Millennium

I want to touch on just one of these feasts: Pesach. We read about it in the Torah, how the Hebrews had to put the blood of an unblemished lamb on their doorposts so the angel of death would pass over their homes, right? As a child, I didn't really understand how that applied to me in this time frame. Fast forward and I finally understood that this blood of the unblemished Lamb is still shed, and must still be applied to the doorposts of ones home (we, ourselves, must be covered by the blood of the Lamb for remission of sins, because without the shedding of blood, there is NO remission of sins). My husband gave a Pesach teaching a few years ago that really rocked me. He asked this question, "When was YOUR Passover? When did the angel of death pass over you?" It called each person there to ask them self this question, "What is MY personal testimony of salvation in Yeshua HaMashiach?" "When was Yeshua's blood applied to ME?"

For me, this applies to today's passage because it reminds me that He has always been here, He has always desired a relationship with us. And not only that, but He has always wanted us to be a reflection of HIS image. Not what we see in the magazines, or in the marketplace, on TV, etc. Back then, He didn't want them to look like or act like, or BE like unbelievers, and He doesn't change. He STILL doesn't want us to be like them. 

He's calling out to me today a reminder: That Yeshua's blood was shed for me. Am I living for the One Who died for me? Am I a reflection of the G-d I serve? Is HIS likeness seen in me? If G-d is invisible, are His characteristics and attributes evident in me? Just as the angel of death saw the blood on the doorposts of the homes, am I recognized by the covering I received in Messiah?

P: Avinu Malkeinu, our Father and our King, You have really caught my attention this morning with this passage. I pray that You will have mercy on me as You continue to mold me and shape me. I am so far from perfect. I am flawed, and I make mistakes. In that, I am not a reflection of You. But by the blood of Your Son, I am made new! Abba, I want to accurately reflect You. I want to be an ambassador of Your kingdom, and not a spokesperson for this world. Help me to discern in every aspect of my life how I can represent You in the way You desire me to. If there are relationships that need to be cultivated, show them to me, and if there are relationships whose season have come to an end, please give me the strength to do as You would like me to do. I praise You and thank You for allowing me to serve You. B'Shem Yeshua, Amein.

Monday, October 22, 2018

LGG: Promises of God ~ Week 2, Day 1

Read & SOAP: 

1 Corinthians 15:58

S: Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the L-rd's work, because you know that your labor is not in vain in the L-rd.

-Always abounding in the L-rd's work = Always excel in the tasks assigned by one and to be done for his (Messiah's) sake/business, employment, that with which anyone is occupied
-you know that your labor = intense labor united with trouble, toil - the labor to which love prompts, and which voluntarily assumes and endures trouble and pains for the salvation of others 
- is not in vain in the L-rd = metaphorically, of endeavors, labors, acts, which result in nothing, vain, fruitless, without effect

This passage is begun with a beautiful endearment, one that I use often. All who know me know my husband is so much my beloved that it is one of the ways I refer to him "Beloved Husband". It's an esteemed title. Then to tell us to be steadfast, immovable (which makes think of having ones' chin set like flint, Isaiah 50:7, to be determined)... always excelling in the tasks we are assigned for Messiah's sake... and to know that our toils will not be without effect. 

Oh man. I see a picture in my mind of me sweeping my floors this morning. It's been raining ridiculously here in Texas, so much that last week our car got stuck in deep mud... in our own driveway! Every time we step foot inside our home, we are tracking mud, which dries into dirt. Everywhere you walk, your feet feel gritty. That is, until I sweep. Which I am having to do multiple times a day to keep our feet and floors from being gritty. But the work is not in vain. I don't receive a lot of thanks for the work, until I skip a sweeping. Ha! Then when I DO sweep, it's very welcomed. Whether the work is recognized or not, there is benefit. And so it is with our service to the Master. I may never know why He pointed this person out to pray for as we drive past them, or why He told me to give this person a word from Him, or even why He calls me to do ANYTHING! But I know that His word does not go out and return to Him void - it accomplishes His purpose. So I have to believe that, and desire to excel in what He calls me to do. And know that no matter the difficulty of the task, or the unthankfulness I may receive (not all people want to hear the gospel, after all), my assurance is in Him.

Anyway, that's what it makes me think of. Luke 17:9 says, "Does he thank that servant because he did the things that were commanded? I think not." So we may not receive thanks, or recognition at the time of our service that we ought to excel in, but we toil, and I for one desire these words, "Well done, good and faithful servant." 

P: Oh, Abba, You know my heart. You know it is desperately wicked, it wants to be self-serving when You call me to do the hard things. It wants to self-preserve! It wants to choose life, but Your word says we don't choose life, we have to die to ourselves to receive eternal life in Your kingdom! This word today is so strengthening to me, reminding me WHY we are here, often carrying a broken heart for the lost, for the hurting, for the questioning, for the ones who stand with one foot on either side of the fence... for the ones that spitefully use us for Your purpose. Abba, when my heart says it can't take anymore, Your word says it can! When my spirit is heavy with the troubles of others, You remind me that I am doing what You called me to do, to love others as myself, and to grieve with those grieving, rejoice with those rejoicing. I can't do that if I am immune to their emotions and circumstances. I pray Abba that You would cause my heart to be even more tender towards You and Your purposes. The word labor in our passage today is broken down to " the labor to which love prompts, and which voluntarily assumes and endures trouble and pains for the salvation of others". I pray for more of Your strength to endure these troubles and pains for the salvation of others. I pray that I would understand better that if it's hurting my heart to see Your children who are called by Your name act in these ways, that it's breaking YOUR heart, and how much more so. Help me to set my chin like flint against the adversary, and sometimes even against my own desires, so that I am not a stumbling block to Your works. B'Shem Yeshua/In Yeshua's name, Amein.